It happend AGAIN.

I hate this fucking Wordpress shit and everything that comes with it. Apparently it’s not the right thing to do for me, maybe I should just go ahead and keep a regular old-fashioned diary.

Everything, the whole /wp folder got deleted AGAIN.

Sure, Kristie told me how to make backups and so the posts are back up now which is more than I had last time. But what I didn’t know is that all the subpages are gone now because the backup only backups posts and comments.

What the fuck is up with that?? Who cares about the stupid comments, those subpages were so nuch more important to me. All the texts on there had come out to be so perfect. I’m never going to be able to re-write it that same awesome way- let alone how long it’s going to take!

Why does this keep happening to me?

I am so goddamned mad right now, I don’t know what to do with all this hate and anger I have inside of me.

If you’re not in this same situation, you’ll probably think I’m losing my mind, thinking that it’s ridiculous to act this way about losing twenty texts to SOMETHING FUCKING EVIL CALLED THE INTERNET THAT DOESN’T SAVE STUFF EVER.

But seriously, I am in actual physical pain right now. How could this happen to me again??

I blogged about a new project I wanted to start last night and how I felt really strong and confident that I would be able to do it and now all that is gone because of something as retarted as Fantastico which just deletes stuff as it fucking wishes?

Oh God, I am so mad right now. I don’t think I’ve ever been this angry! The first time it happend, a whole year of entried got deleted and, obviously, I was mad. The second time it happened, I was mad because COME ON WHAT KIND OF JOKE IS THIS? But now, the third damn time? I am so, so, so mad.

What am I going to do now? I don’t think I have the strength to re-type everything, let alone that it’ll take for-fucking-ever to remember what I had written down on all those subpages.

I think I really need to take a walk or something to blow off some steam.

I’m inexplicably tired right now but I’m sure as soon as I turn the lights off and sink into bed, I’ll be wide awake.

There’s a new theme again. Please treat it gently because I really do like it but it seems somewhat breakable, what with all those brand-spankin’ new plugins and Javascript slide menus and all.

Funky, don’t you think?

I’m still working on centering the layout and a couple of other changes here and there but I wanted to put it up tonight because I’m so busy this week - and basically all upcoming weeks until late summer as well.

I currently hate life, but when have I not? A few things have popped up that I hadn’t been aware of thus far and now I feel betrayed and run over - in a way. I’m sure I’ll post about it all later this week but I don’t have the nerve to do so right now.

I finished The Tender Bar by J. R. Moehringer. A great book, you should definitely check it out. Which doesn’t sound very enthusiastic, I know. I’m just so tired which results in both writing and English language skills taking a big hit tonight. But it’s a GREAT BOOK. READ IT.

My Gossip Girl box set should also be arriving any day now. Yay. Like I have time to read. Silly.

Whatever happened to blog posts that actually made sense or had some sort of structure.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYBODY!

Yeah - same shit, different year. No, I’m kidding but I guess having a more positive attitude towards things in general could be one of my resolutions for 2008.

But then again, as you well know, I’m always trying to take the easiest way and forcing myself to do stuff just because that’s all I randomly came up with when asked about New Year’s resolutions - that’s definitely not making life easier.
So, thanks, but I’m just gonna stay put and continue life the way I always have. That’s not saying I don’t want any change at all. But I also don’t want to make promises to myself that I’m not going to be able to keep because I know me; I give up New Year’s resolutions by the end of January.

Anyway, the new theme is up but I still have to link to the subpages in the menu to your left. I tried something a little different from my usual themes this time (although I couldn’t bring myself to get rid of the wooden texture in the background) and I actually kinda like it.

What do you think?