Breaking

This whole countdown thing - everybody’s painting the number of school days left on their cheeks every day - is really starting to get to me. I’ll leave the house tomorrow morning with a big, fat ONE on my cheek. Question is, whether I’ll have cried it off by the time I arrive at school.

All this feels so weird. Not spectacular, like I always thought it would feel and not liberating, like I had always hoped it would feel. It’s more frightening and devastating than I anticipated it to be.

I literally feel sick to my stomach. I just can’t grasp the fact that after tomorrow night’s huge ALCOHOL FEST (although, granted, that’s not its official name) I will never see any of these people again in the way I have for at least eight years. I don’t understand why there have to be these moments in life where you have to seperate. What’s the point? Of anything, really? What’s the point in bonding, in socializing, in fitting in; what’s the point of any effort I made when it’s all being broken apart now?

I’m off to go to yet another Senior Book meeting. Another ten-hour sit-in to take a few steps towards getting this thing done.

I fucking hate this. Only one teeny tiny goddamned day to go.


posted on April 2, 2008 • filed under School
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  1. wait.. what?! How do you only have one day left in school! How long is the school year in Germany?

    Usually, it lasts until June or July (it varies) but since I’m graduating this year, it ended last Friday for me. Now, we’re off school which gives us time to study for the final graduation exams which are being held in April. In May, oral exams are taking place. On June 7, we’re finally and actually graduating.